As of today, I have officially rededicated my life to serving Christ. For me, this is a road I have been down before but this time around, something is much different; it's this since of urgency, an anxiousness still dwells within me. I know I have so much to do, many areas that God has to work on in me in order for God to do all things thru me that He has called me to do.
I will admit, I have many areas I have struggled with over the years, many times; these have been the very things that caused me to backslide back into a life of sin, this time around, I will have to stay the course if I ever expect to experience the full armor of God.
My desires is that this time around that I draw closer to the Lord so that I can hear his voice when He needs to instruct me, guide me so that I may do things that are pleasing to the Lord.
The main thing I struggle with is lust, these desires sometime will hit me out of no where. For women, it is much easier to abstain seeing that everything for them starts in the mind while men on the other hand are more visual creatures. With that said, I will have to govern the music I listen to, what I read and what I watch on TV....I will admit, this is going to be a huge adjustment for me, unlearning all the old stuff and that in itself will be a process for me...and it won't be easy.
For today, I receive God's love, receive everything he is showing me as I allow Him to lead me. One day at a time....E.M.